dari jauh by nabil

Tiada malam lena tidurku
hanya igauan mimpi yang pilu
kerna setiap kali ku pejamkan mata
ku hanya terlihat dirimu

mengapa aku masih menanti
harapan yang kian tidak pasti
walau ku sedar hakikatnya
kau takkan kembali di sisi

walau kau tidak perlukanku
aku tetap mendoakan kebahagianmu
tapi hanya satu yang ku pinta
izinkanku menyintaimu dari jauh

walau aku pernah menyatakan
yang ku telah lepaskan segala
hakikatnya hati kecilku masih menyinta
aku simpan saja perasaanku
menahan derita dalam rindu

::sangat best!::

i am back!

the lil lady is now back. but i can't promise to update frequently as i'm still struggling with life and making myself stable.

but hey, my blog is now open to others. ending all the soal-jawab.

will update soon when i have the heart to write.

mwahss!

::comeback::

women and their super powers

wonder why women always get fussy about simple things in relationship? the answer is, that's just what and how we are in relationships. we complaint, we demand, we make effortS, we struggle, we tolerate, that's how we survived.

women tend to get overreacted and paranoid from time to time. even though most of them might deny this, the reality is, they are what they said they aren't.

overreacted is something you can't help in women. they took almost everything up to a notch to where it almost become unnecessary to think about. yes, they lovveeee to do this. their panic attacks are something you'll never be able to keep track with. being worried, get panic, are things you don't have to tell a woman how to do it.

women in relationships tend to adapt this one new ability, being paranoid over unnecessary things. suke pikir bukan2. they are able to grow a simple small thing to something that you'll die if you don't resolve that. e.g picking up the colour of your couch for the living hall. (trust me, i've seen this in reality).

women can stand ignorance. BUT not in constant and long period of time. they can't tolerate this. it might be even worse for an attention-addict type. things have to be all about them all the time. being ignored leads women to payback and doing stupid things. so don't even think of trying to TEST them. seriously, you 'll never be preapred for the long term consequences.

once in a blue moon, women tend to be a bit ngade2 without reason. ngade2 as in PURPOSELY cari pasal nak gaduh just to get the guy's attention.

women do tolerate, most of the time. on certain issues. only.

::i.am.NOT.complaining.on.anything::

K.U.S.U.T

the ONLY thing i should think about for the rest of this week is my final TEACHING OBSERVATION.

stop worrying about unnecessary things, stop thinking about how to kusutkan my own mind, stop everything UN-productive.

and stop promising so many people that i will go n watch shopaholic with them because i don't think i could. soooooo super serabut ok.

ezzaira, if u're reading this, i need to talk to u. please fit me in your super duper busy schedule.
notice the word PLEASE? i never used that with u. (yeke?) so pleaseeee.....

*gggrrrrrrr* why do la my best friend have to be miles away when i needed him to be accessible at the moment. gosh. kusut!

::i am not being unreasonable, so stop saying that i am::

crave-ness

to those around me, especially eiy, might call me pathetic for having this craving. hihihihi...

I AM CRAVING FOR THIS :

and if you wonder why i'm calling myself pathetic, it is because, for the past 3 weeks, boleh dikatakan almost everyday i was lepak-ing at uncle k, and the secret recipe outlet is just next to it and i can practically wave the waiter to bring me a piece of this.. hehehehehe.. told ya, i am pathetic.

too bad dah tak bleh ajak eiy to accompany me to fulfill my craveness for this. tertekan tgk die makan skang. hahahahaha...

babe, abg starbucks dah nk berenti keje.... nanti kite g lepak sane eh... winduu!!!!!!

::makan, makan, makan::

anuar zain feat. fatin sherrina

dalam video ni terselit kesayanganku si baby fatin. hahahahaha....

::hanya milikmu::

i love her hair and i definitely hate mine..

just look at her hair............. sangat G.E.R.A.M ok. too bad i am bounded not to do anything with my hair due to ethics bla bla bla. grrrr.....

i'm so sorry for leaving my blog unattendded for so long. i'm just too fucked up with other things lately and my life is pretty much a haywire.

i sincerely apologize for the silence.

thank u.

::bizzybee::

facing the fear with aching feet n heart..

1st day at school :

my feet is aching. damn la... the weird thing is i can go shopping for one whole day in wedges and heels unpainfully but couldn't survive the 6 hours of school in my black flat pumps. shit ok.

at the moment, i'm just gonna stare at my elegant dark grey vincci pump heels because i'm so gonna find a way to wear that gorgeous pair one day. i don't care.

i'm still freaking out, the panic is still there, the pressure to impressed is so hard to handle.

and people is making me frustrated day by day.

to these people who wished me tonnes of lucks n good day, yang bangun subuh2 to text me, thanks a lot. your wishes gave me the courage to face today.

# ayah and mak. (ayah punye kate2 semangat sikit punye panjang sampai menangis aku baca)
# kakngah syahrezad
# ina amoi
# catt meow meow
# si sepet, ezzaira
# si bulat, nabilah husna
# si bahu longgar, cindai
# mat smart starbucks, tabla
# si demam sampai takleh bangun, bapak
# nur diyana
# meh

itu saje. sekian. tak payah cari nama alip, mmg tak ade dalam tu. terima kasih dari hujung cekak rambut sampai la ke hujung kasut aku yang macam gampang ni k.

::panik, panik, panik::